GENTLE PATHFINDER | NEURO-ENERGETIC BODYWORKER | SPIRAL PRACTITIONER
Deep Inner Knowing
In the Winter of 2017, I found myself at a crossroads. I’d made a whole heap of changes in my life, but the one element that remained stuck, was my business.
I had a beautiful premises in central Bristol, UK. I had 2 other practitioners working for me. I had a client base of 8 years that consistently came to receive my healing. I’d been using hands on Neuro- Energetic work in the form of Network Spinal, Energy Work and Kinesiology for many years. I was the only practitioner in the whole city working in the way I was working. But I was struggling to fully step in and create the identity I knew I held deep in my heart. I could feel I didn’t fit the pre-ordained idea of what a Chiropractor or Kinesiologist or Bodyworker was. I held so much within me, but it didn’t seem to fit the confines of private practice. Despite this, I couldn’t seem to own what I truly wanted to be. So my practice message felt confused and depleting. I couldn’t see an easy way through. I also wasn’t sure if this was my path, but if if it wasn’t, what my path truly was.
My days felt long and arduous, but I couldn’t manage to get consistent change and I was drowning in the “doing”. The many years of deep inner work, meant that I found myself disconnected from UK culture. I loved my own space, but was beginning to feel isolated and alone. I really wanted to find my tribe. I wanted to collaborate. I wanted to roam free.
Over the previous 6 years I’d also hit a huge block in my creativity. I’d gone from being a lead singer in various projects, melodies pouring out of me day and night, to being so unable to open my voice and make sound, that I hardly recognised the woman that once stood on stage, making jaws drop with the emotion that effortlessly came through in her melody and harmony.
I’d met Yana Fay during that Summer, through an introduction by a friend. I could feel her power and energy through the screen as we discussed my joining of her and her (now husband), Nyaniso’s, creative project at their favourite festival in the UK, as part of their brand Vela Souls (www.velasouls.com). I had no idea why I had to be there, but I had a strong feeling that I needed to go.
It was here that I heard the words “Pelvic Bowl”. A part of me sparked. A deeper, more quiet part of me spoke “You need this”.
I followed Yana on social media for a few months. In truth, I was triggered. All my self worth stuff flared. I felt inadequate and un-journeyed. I wanted to push away from what I saw and heard.
And then I stopped myself. “You’re triggered because you need this”.
I reached out to Yana.
I said YES to joining Deep Inner Knowing. The first ever round of what was to be an 8 week online course. To join a group of women. To journey into my womb. To be taken through 3 Pelvic Bowl Activation sessions, a hybrid creation by Yana, based on emotional clearing, the main tool used in The Spiral process (www.thespiral.com).
It was slow. It was confronting. It was deep. It cracked me open week by week. Saw me resist in ways I never knew possible. Brought me to my knees, allowed me to be seen fully in the truth of all that I was. The 8 week course turned into a lifelong online space. I made deep, connected friendships. I connected with my womb in ways I never thought possible. My voice began to come back. My souls song began to re- ignite. Over 10 of the Deep Inner Knowing women congregated in the UK in 2018 to watch Yana and Nyaniso get married. We sang. We hugged. We looked into each others eyes and realised just how powerful this space we had created had become. How, in answering Yana’s call, we had all found something that was missing.
In August 2018, I sold everything in the UK and left to find my real souls calling.
I had found my inner knowing.
I had found my tribe.
I had come home.
I am now part of the DEEP team. And every time I write or speak this, I feel emotion well in my throat and my heart say “thank you for trusting me and choosing to say YES to this path”. I will be guiding pelvic bowl activations and online calls in the Deep Inner Knowing space. Guiding women to what they innately hold. Creating magic. Learning more about myself along the way.
I am beyond excited to watch this container expand further. To meet more soul tribe. To open more of myself to this work and the mystery and to feel more of that YES in my body.
As we rise. Together.
I would love for you to join us.
Next round, May 2020.
Image by Kathryn Rollins http://kathrynrollins.com.au/